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Hey, this is my first forum post on this site and I am totaly new to smoking. I'm almost 20 years old and I've never tried smoking before, but suddenly a few weeks back the idea of trying it out planted itself firmly inside my skull and despite my best efforts to shake it out I was doomed to failure. So a few days ago I bought my first two packs of Marlboro Reds and I tried one a day for 2 days and today, my 3rd day, I've tried 3. I'm not getting a head rush or any kind of sensation from it though.
Maybe the reds are too rough and I should've started with a pack of golds (I couldn't find any golds in the store so I just went for 2 reds), but if I try and inhale any larger amount of smoke I just cough it up and I've been trying to balance it by doing smaller inhales and trying to keep it on the brink of what my throat can handle, but then I still don't get any sensation. I just feel it's going to be hard for me to keep myself motivated to keep going if I just feel its a painful experience every time and I don't even get a kick out of it. Maybe the motivation of becoming a smoker might be enough anyway though, since I really feel like the social side it seems to bring about it with meeting other people that smoke etc, is quite attractive.
I guess I'm just asking for some tips though of how to maybe ease my way into smoking and I'm also wondering how long it might take for me to enjoy it if I'm only smoking 1-2 a day. I really don't want smoking to get out of hand and 1-2 a day is the most I'm comfortable with, so I don't want to start out 4-5 a day just to get used to it or anything like that.