PLEASURE WARNING: Starting smoking now significantly increases your feelings of pleasure.
i used to smoke once in awhile and had long periods of not smoking at all. Lately I have started smoking more although I often still go a day or two without a cigarette. I used to not like the smoke itself but the act of smoking. In the last week I have been smoking about half a pack every evening and now actually enjoy the smoke itself. I still can not directly inhale the smoke without coughing but I can get it into my lungs by getting it in my mouth and then inhaling a large breath through my nose and during that starting to inhale through my mouth. For the first time I am enjoying the taste of the smoke and the smells of it. I am wanting a cigarette instead of just going through the motions. I can now enjoy not only the act of smoking but the whole sensation of smell, taste and breathing it. Even though I know more than most what damage it does to my body, I am strangly glad and happy to have reached this point in my smoking experience. I guess part of it is now that I am old, I want to enjoy more things that I feared/shuned in my younger days. So: Hip, hip, hooray, I am a smoker and thrilled to be one! Thank you for this site as it has helped me to this step. No I am really going out and buying cigarettes. My brand is Virginia Slims 120s Silvers. I know that may seem like a weak smoke to some but it is the one I enjoy after trying a lot of them and it lets me really smoke and enjoy. Have a wonderful day everyone as I am really happy right now!